Rage

“Fuck off with your sofa units and string green stripe patterns, I say never be complete, I say stop being perfect, I say lets evolve, let the chips fall where they may.”

-Tyler Durden, Fight Club

People always tell you that anger is bad.  Anger consumes you.  You cannot be successful if you are angry.

I remember when I could be solely and entirely defined by anger and looking back, it wasted a lot of time.

However, sometimes you just feel rage.  There is nothing wrong with that.  Experiencing genuine rage is beautiful.  You can channel it, give in to it, simply feel it….it does not have to define you.  You are alive.

Today I woke up angry.  I couldn’t put my finger on a particular reason, maybe several things grinding away at me…at first I was annoyed by the return of what I thought was long gone rage.  But then I channelled it.  Into the gym.  Into study.  Into writing. 

Everything I did today, I was better at, because I was able to grab that rage and make it work for me.  This made me think about Tyler Durden’s warped embrace of anarchy.  Maybe balance is overrated.  Maybe it is the balanced people who are the afflicted.  After all when we look at the most successful people in the world, attaching the label of ‘balance’ to them is often impossible.

Perhaps this is just a darker day for me.  But the fact remains, I was better at everything today.

To quote Fight Club once again, I felt like destroying something beautiful.

That is the beauty.